Monday, January 6, 2014

Getting to Second Base, How I Spent my Winter Vacation

It has been an extremely long two weeks spent mostly with my two daughters at home, not 
working. This hasn’t been very good for me, as it led me to be hyper focused on the lump on my 
left breast. You know, the one only my breast surgeon could feel...that I wasn't really worrying 
about? Except holy crap! Now I feel it too, and am worrying about it a lot! In fact all vacation 
week that is all I did - feel it. I felt myself up during a 6 hour drive from New Jersey to Massachusetts, for two hours at the movie theater watching Frozen, in the shower, and at night in bed. I had my Mom feel me up, my husband feel me up, and I'm assuming (simply because they have no boundaries) my 
daughters felt me up. Finally, on Thursday I had my long awaited breast MRI (still waiting on 
results) so again there was some more second base action during that appointment. 

In addition to feeling myself up, I've also spent a lot of the past two weeks reading and watching 
the delightfully charming, but also subtly depressing, Charlie Brown Christmas. My daughter falls asleep best when I read her the book so each night I laid in bed with her relating as Charlie said "I like getting presents and sending Christmas cards and decorating trees and all that, but I'm still not happy. I always end up feeling depressed.

New Years this year was also tough. It's hard to take a ‘New Year, New You, New Opportunities’
perspective when you know the biggest thing ahead in 2014 is major surgery. Conventional New Years resolutions seem trite to me this year. Don't get me wrong, the past two weeks weren't always doom and gloom - there were pockets of good times: celebrating Christmas Eve with a Feast of Seven Fishes (one of my best decisions ever was marrying into an Italian family), a road trip and quality time with my bestie, spending time with my parents. And I do have some good stuff ahead in 2014: my daughter is turning 3 (my absolute favorite kid age), I'll be celebrating my 10 year wedding anniversary with a man I'm still crazy in love with, and after a long journey to get there, I finally have three part time jobs that I really love. After giving it a lot of thought I figured out a realistic and fair new years resolution for myself. As this is the year I'm putting my health first, I resolve to follow in Michelle Obama's footsteps and put myself first in all manners. I'm all about being selfish and truly believe a happier and healthier me, will also make for a better mother, wife, teacher, and friend. So here's to 2014! The year of me! And since for the first time in 3+ years I'm not pregnant or breast-feeding, I can have 3+ drinks to that.


  1. Ricki JaeckelJanuary 06, 2014

    love it (especially the bestie road trip part)

  2. And I especially love my supportive bestie